playing jonah

Have you ever talked loud to drown out the voice you didn't want to hear?
Not that you'd ever admit it,
but when you got down to the heart of things,
you didn't want to hear the words
you
knew
to be
Truth.
I just did.

Have you ever been so sure of something,
but then little roadblocks came up,
and you said
"Never mind."
"Maybe it's changed."

Have you ever tried to block
out the Message?
What you knew to be true?

Right?
His will?

I'd hear,
plug my ears.
and go
"lalala. I caann't heeeaaar youuu!"

There's now this little wall around my heart.

Oh, Lord.
Forgive me.

Break that wall.

I hear you.
What you want?
Make it happen if it needs too.

Father,
I'm so sorry.

This was terrible.

I don't want to play Jonah.
I love how clear and loud you've been.

Now I see:
It's all an exercise in
shutting up.
Listening.
Silence.
And even as I write this?
The song that comes up on Pandora?

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
Should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fameYour will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul
I give you control
Consume me from the inside out
Let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring you praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
(From the Inside Out -Hillsong)


The lies say
you failed.
I did.

But my God,
King of Kings,

He forgives.

I'll fail thousands of times.
I'm so sorry.

But I am Yours.
I love You.

Speak with me again,
please?
I'll listen.
I hear You.

Love:)
R