4-30

 

 

If there's anything I can pray for...

comment?

Anonymous if you want,

He knows! :)

 

 

Love:)

 

R

either way

The more we believe that God hurts only to heal, the less we can believe that there is any use in begging for tenderness. A cruel man might be bribed...But suppose that what you are up against is a surgeon whose intentions are wholly good. The kinder and more conscientious he is, the more inexorably he will go on cutting. If he yielded to your entreaties, if he stopped before the operation was complete, all the pain up to that point would have been useless. But is it credible that such extremities of torture should be necessary for us? Well, take your choice. The tortures occur. If they are unnecessary, then there is no God or a bad one. If there is a good God, then these tortures are necessary. For no even moderately good Being could possibly inflict or permit them if they weren't. Either way, we're for it.

-C.S. Lewis

canceled

Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.
1 Corinthians 13:8-10


So it's all going to end....
but not love.
God giving us words-
won't be needed, 'cause we'll be with Him.

Private words with the Spirit?
won't be needed, 'cause we'll be with Him.

Understanding?
We'll see it all.


We only know a tiny bit,
and what we say?
What we know?

It's so imperfect,
so incomplete.

It feels that way sometimes,
doesn't it?

Other times it feels like I can't even know more about Him,
His love,
because what I feel and see is so ridiculous that I can't comprehend it.

when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.

Honest? I have
so
many
incompletes.

Not going to lie.

So ready for the Complete to cancel it all out.

Thankfully,
I know it'll happen!

Love:)

R

nehemiah 8:10

And he said to them,
“Go your way.
Eat the fat and
drink sweet wine and
send portions to anyone who has nothing ready,
for this day is holy to our Lord.
And do not be grieved,
for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”

Yes?
Ever so much.

Love:)

R

do what's best

sent to us

And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world.
1 John 4:14

voices

Ever hear the voices?
All the lies
that are louder than truth sometimes?
Read this,
and then post here
let someone else say
"me too"
and let it go.
Let Him show you that
they're just voices.

Love:)

R

come find rest

Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30

And when you're so weary you feel like a dead woman walking?
When you want to drop it all,
but you are oh so afraid to let go?
I'm so there.
Foolishness, I know,
but I am stumbling,
and I want to give it,
and yet I am so afraid to release.


We have to live our lives
with hands held loose.


Father,
Take it.

Give me yours.

Help me to really,
truly,
for real mean those words.

I want the rest so badly.

Love:)

R

for extraordianry

concrete girl -switchfoot

Bleeding thoughts
Cracking boulder
Don't fall over

Fake your laughter
Burn the tear
Sing it louder
Twist and shout

Way up here
We stand on shoulders
Growing colder

Laugh or cry
I won't mind
Sing it louder
Twist and shout

Immovable shadows
The concrete girl
They'll rock your world to nothing

And they're swimming around again, again
And they're swimming around
The concrete girl

Catch your breath like four-leaf clover
Hand it over

Scream to no one
Take your time
Sing it louder
Twist and shout

Nothing to run from is worse than something
And all your fears of nothing

And they're swimming around again, again
And they're swimming around
The concrete girl

Concrete girl don't fall down
In this broken world around you
Concrete girl don't fall down
Don't fall down my concrete girl
Don't stop thinking
Don't stop feeling now
One step away from where we were
And one step back to nothing

And we're standing on top of our hopes and fears
And we're fighting for words now concrete girl
And we're swimming around again, again
And we're swimming around now
Concrete girl

Concrete girl don't fall down in this broken world around you
Concrete girl don't fall down
Don't fall down my concrete girl

Concrete girl don't fall down in this concrete world around you
Concrete girl don't fall down
Don't break down my concrete girl

good and perfect

 

 

This was my hike today.

Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change

James 1:17

 

It was glorious.

These are my photos, ask before you use them! :)

Love:)

 

R

 

 

strength of mine

you are more -tenth avenue north

I had to post this after seeing this really cool video. Indeed. You are more than any of what you feel defines you, for you've been remade.

There's a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide

She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"

But don't you know who you are,
What's been done for you?
Yeah don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

Well she tries to believe it
That she's been given new life
But she can't shake the feeling
That it's not true tonight

She knows all the answers
And she's rehearsed all the lines
And so she'll try to do better
But then she's too weak to try

But don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,

You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create.
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You've been remade
You've been remade.
You've been remade.
You've been remade.

heavy thanks

It's heavy.

All of this?

Hard.

Peace comes and goes,
alternating bits of
grief
and
joy.

We swim hard,
and I laugh hard,
and for a couple hours
my world of water and burning muscles and laughter is all I know.
It's a welcome gift.
Thanks be to God.

Later we gather around the table,
family,
and we eat curry- bright with peppers and spices,
brilliant yellow over  pale brown rice.
It's spicy and daring and joyful-
happy food.

Not so much because we are happy,
but because we know that there is still
joy.
Still goodness.
Thanks be to God.

There is that hope, that joy;
she's free.
Free of earthly chains,
of broken body,
prison of a shell.

We know this-
all is made right,
broken is healed,
pain is gone,
beauty rises in the ashes.
Thanks be to God.

There is pain,
all around.
Many we love.

But.

He is good.
Thanks be to God.


Love:)

R

though I walk through fire

Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
    I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
 When you pass through the waters,
    I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
    they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
    you will not be burned;
    the flames will not set you ablaze
Isaiah 43:1-2

following the champion

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people; then you won’t become weary and give up. After all, you have not yet given your lives in your struggle against sin.

Hebrews 12:1-3


Today?

Don't give up.
Remember the ones who have gone before.
Fix your gaze on Jesus,
and
you know what you'll realize?

That
nothing else matters.

Love:)

R